DIARY OF A BATTERED WIFE....······....

DIARY OF A BATTERED WIFE........

Today he hit me again,it wasn't like yesterday or the other
days,this time I think I have broken a rib,I am coughing out
blood,I can't move a muscle and he is still hitting me,he
kicked my belly again, ooooh I think I am dying,I can't
breathe,everywhere is dark,it's peaceful,I don't feel
anymore pain,it's quiet here..........................
.
Someone is touching me, where am I? Judgement day?
Everyone here is wearing white? I see medical
equipments,do they use that in heaven? My head hurts like
hell not that I know what hell feels like tho. But where am
I?................. I think the man in white is talking to me, why
can't I reply? Oh my God!!!!! Am I dumb? Why can't I
respond? Why can't I talk? Why can't I move? Am I in a
hospital? What happened? I feel sleepy maybe when I wake
up,I'll have answers. .......................
I feel so tired,I'm in pains, I can't move. How did I get
here? I remember when I started dating Paul,he used to be
a very sweet guy every thing a woman wants in a man well
almost everything. Paul had(still has) a terrible temper,the
first year he really controlled it but after then he changed, a
little mistake I got one or two slap then he'll cry,beg and
make me see reasons why it was my fault, then he'll buy
me gifts,lot of gifts to make up. I remember the first time
he hit,I got a call from an old friend and we ended up
talking for over 30minutes,Paul demanded to know who
called,I told him but he thought I was lying and he seized
my phone,I tried taking it from him,he descended in me
and beat the living daylight out of me,he broke my sim and
threw the phone away. He said to me "I don't share what I
have" He got me another phone(a better one) and a sim.
Paul spoilt me with gifts and destroyed my body and soul
with his hands or belt.........................................
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I thought marriage will change him,I thought if I stopped
doing those things he hated,he will stop but every week he
had two new reasons to beat me, when I had a
miscarriage,he bought me a car and promised to change,I
cannot leave him because I don't know where to start
from, God hates divorce and the society will mock me. No
one believed when I told them that Paul beats me because
he is such a gentleman who will never hurt a fly,well I'm
not a fly.
Like he said,sometimes I deserve to be beaten,because I
have to be taught a lesson. 8years 2kids,I am still being
taught a lesson. Two months ago he hit me with a kitchen
chair and it landed in my head,I had a fracture in my
skull,he flew me abroad for treatment, and bought me a
house. My friends called me stupid for thinking of leaving
him,alot of women will kill to be in my shoes. I can't tell
my family because Paul is the best in law they ever had,I
am on my own. Hmmmmm life. .....
Here I am in the hospital,I can't talk or move any part of
my body except my eyes,Paul did this to me because I told
him that I was tired of being a house wife and I wanted to
look for a job. Well I must have said one or two things out
of anger,he pounced on me,he tried to strangle me,he hit
me,kicked me,did all God knows what. Maybe I deserved
it........... I feel so tired,let me sleep again maybe the pains
will go away or maybe I will wake up on judgment's day.